Socks and the System

my new mirror makes me look nine feet tall. from this height it's surprising how close my toes are. stocking'd toes, insulated from the cold by ingenious human inventions. spun wool! knit yarn! space heaters! the simple things! oh, how we all yearn for perfect comfort. oh, and how we will never achieve it. until, perhaps, we give up the quest. but would we be human without striving for more, better, higher goals? maybe, but we would be bored. capitalism could be described as a system designed to keep us occupied. always competing and struggling and reaching for that impossible height which only grows higher as we climb. success in an unachievable notion, and laughably so. but survival, procreation: these are still our instincts. no matter how much capital we amass or create, however you like, we must sustain our bodies, keep them warm and functioning which, in our system necessitates that we acquire and then spend large amounts of capital throughout our lives. this puts a middleman between our instincts and our actions and distances us from ourselves, as well as the products we create and consume. i'm not sure where this thought is going, whether that space is just something that comes with a population of 7 billion and a largely globalized market, maybe it's what we strive for: to be removed from our base animal ancestry, or maybe it's why so many people are shooting people all over the world. who are we, anyways? what motivates us? where are we going? i see chaos in the future. when i call on all my knowledge and experience and try to predict where this system is going, all i know is that it will die. soon. violently. there is no alternative. the people who are so afraid of themselves are learning something beyond fear. i'm not sure yet what it is. maybe it's rage. Maybe it's grief, or psychological boredom. Or maybe it's something we have been taught by messiah after prophet after saint after guru. maybe it's Love. unconditional, unabbreviated. maybe. i have hope. and warm socks to last me through the winter. and a mirror that makes me feel... tall.