Saturday, March 13, 2010
The Sacrifice of Innocents
How many innocent smiling faces must be sacrificed in our desperate attempts at greatness? How many smileys will end up frowny, with x’s for eyes as we blindly strive to compete and conquer? How many will be killed within the first few seconds of utter ignorance, blind, wild guessation, sporadic flailings on the battlefield, more often then not losing immediately, guessing wrong and exploding a little fictional innocent in vain, only to start again, to kill again? How many?! And how many times will we save that same smiley face only to find that our time was unsatisfactory and our name and numbers will not be saved in the Minesweeper Hall of Fame? Who are we to decide their fates?
Saturday, March 6, 2010
I have a lot to say. But when it comes to writing, I forget all the important revelations I've had whilst conversating. Maybe I should get a secretary to follow me around everywhere. Or just wire myself. I'd just like to be able to go back a find out what all I've said because it's gone from my head as soon as I've said it. And I like to think I say some pretty cool stuff. There's been a ton of material for thought in my life lately, I'm having trouble giving each topic the attention it deserves. There's just so much STUFF. Let's see if I can get at least some of it down in list format, that usually helps.
-I've been a rather less than primo friend recently. Been blowing people off, changing plans, not leaving my house for days at a time. Luckily, those people whom I love and whose friendships I cherish most are understanding enough to love me anyways. Which is great. But I don't want to be the one these gorgeous beings have to be there for. I want to reciprocate their generosity. It's just that I'm on overload right now. Oh, well. My time will come.
-Not only have I been neglecting friends but I have also been all around lazy, neglecting my body and my finances and my writings. I do nothing all day. Except think and read and watch Star Trek and the very bare minimum to keep afloat. My list of responsibilities is, thankfully, very very short at this time and I feel as if I should take advantage of this time, allow myself the luxury of doing nothing I don't want to do. But there are some things I do want to do and when I try to do them there is a habit in my way. If I keep doing this for much longer that habit may take me over and I'll end up never doing anything. It's an interesting balancing act. To allow for laziness and yet to fight it. I'm picking my battles with care.
-Speaking of battles, I just finished a most amazing book, entitled "Shogun." It's set in feudal Japan in the fifteenth century and depicts the culture of that fascinating society in such detail I feel as if I've lived there, been Samurai. The customs and formalities built into their everyday life, structuring their every interaction make so much sense the way James Clavel explains it. The deliberation, patience, grace, prudence, respect and courtesy inherent to their social structure makes me wish I had culture. Any culture would do. Anything that would tell me how to communicate, how to be tactful, how to make other people comfortable around me. Anything uniting all these humans, giving them all a common structure. Japan made so much sense for so many years. Everyone had a place and knew it and accepted it. Mostly. I mean, I don't want to see the return of any caste system but it would be really nice to see everyone treating everyone else as fellow purposeful entities. A general code of human behavior and ethics is vital for unification. If we all knew how to gracefully react to other people we could find common ground, we could really communicate. It's a thought. Still to be developed.
-I've been rather peeved at my wardrobe as of late. Everything in it is so unappealing. I really need to clean it out. A daunting task, but who else is going to do it? The problem is, I like most of my clothes. At least in theory.
-THE FUTURE
That's all for now, folks.
-I've been a rather less than primo friend recently. Been blowing people off, changing plans, not leaving my house for days at a time. Luckily, those people whom I love and whose friendships I cherish most are understanding enough to love me anyways. Which is great. But I don't want to be the one these gorgeous beings have to be there for. I want to reciprocate their generosity. It's just that I'm on overload right now. Oh, well. My time will come.
-Not only have I been neglecting friends but I have also been all around lazy, neglecting my body and my finances and my writings. I do nothing all day. Except think and read and watch Star Trek and the very bare minimum to keep afloat. My list of responsibilities is, thankfully, very very short at this time and I feel as if I should take advantage of this time, allow myself the luxury of doing nothing I don't want to do. But there are some things I do want to do and when I try to do them there is a habit in my way. If I keep doing this for much longer that habit may take me over and I'll end up never doing anything. It's an interesting balancing act. To allow for laziness and yet to fight it. I'm picking my battles with care.
-Speaking of battles, I just finished a most amazing book, entitled "Shogun." It's set in feudal Japan in the fifteenth century and depicts the culture of that fascinating society in such detail I feel as if I've lived there, been Samurai. The customs and formalities built into their everyday life, structuring their every interaction make so much sense the way James Clavel explains it. The deliberation, patience, grace, prudence, respect and courtesy inherent to their social structure makes me wish I had culture. Any culture would do. Anything that would tell me how to communicate, how to be tactful, how to make other people comfortable around me. Anything uniting all these humans, giving them all a common structure. Japan made so much sense for so many years. Everyone had a place and knew it and accepted it. Mostly. I mean, I don't want to see the return of any caste system but it would be really nice to see everyone treating everyone else as fellow purposeful entities. A general code of human behavior and ethics is vital for unification. If we all knew how to gracefully react to other people we could find common ground, we could really communicate. It's a thought. Still to be developed.
-I've been rather peeved at my wardrobe as of late. Everything in it is so unappealing. I really need to clean it out. A daunting task, but who else is going to do it? The problem is, I like most of my clothes. At least in theory.
-THE FUTURE
That's all for now, folks.
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